Overwhelmed

... That is what I'm feeling today. Overwhelmed by so many different emotions, it is hard to even recognize them all. I am missing Parker a lot lately, with Kahlan due to arrive in a week and a half, and all the memories from my last labor experience flooding back, it is hard at times to imagine actually bringing her home. Because Parker never came home. I am trying to rest in God's promises, His faithfulness... but I have to admit how hard that is at times. Days like today. When my blood pressure is a little high, but absolutely nothing else is wrong... I know she is in there, kicking around, doing well... she just got an NST done today and looked great! But, that blood pressure just naggs at me... it starts me worrying and doubting. Ugh... the Dr. says to take it easy... physically taking it easy is not too hard with the way I'm feeling... SO PREGNANT :)But emotionally and mentally taking it easy, well I'm still working on that one! Looking forward to seeing another ultrasound on Friday and counting the days until I get to hold Kahlan, squirming, crying, and beautiful, in my arms. God, increase my faith, give me a peace that only comes from you. I love you, you are my rock and my strong foundation.